Monday, February 18, 2008
firstly,
i'm starting off my bloq.
with some stupid things that pissed me off.
that got me so damn hurt,
by someone who's close to me.
today during assembly,
its all about the conflicts between parents & kids.
ii nearly cried,
cus ii was reflecting back how ii used to shout at my mum & etc...
from then on,
all ii wanted was be back her good daughter.
had trainings,
it ended late.
7++ then we leave from court.
waited at that damned bus stop for so long & there wasnt any bus.
ii was so dying to see dear lo.
yet, that damned bus still dont want come.
feel so bad lo, made deardear wait so longg.
sorrys beloved.
& thank you for being such a wonderful deardear.
you had match earlier on,
& surely you're tired.
yet, you still came to meet me & send me home.
dearest, thanks for everything.
iloveyou. sayacintakamu.
well,
ii reached home at 8++ .
was damn hungry cus of my training.
so ii told my mum ii wanna eat,
guessed what.
she scolded me.
what the hell,
ii say back,
fine larhs, dont eat then dont eat lo.
she say, dont eat your problem.
must well dont come back, dont eat, dont bathe.
what the fuck?
ii damn dulan lo,
but just went to bathe.
cried, yups.
i cried in the bathroom.
messaged deardear.
thanks for being there for me.
ii wanna thank
KYM``laopo/daughter
BRENNA``leslie
DESMOND``darlingkorh
KENNETH``laogong
& of cus
my beloved darling
HONGJIE``deardear/BOYFY : D
thanks for always being there for me no matter what.
thanks for cheering me up when i'm down.
loveyouguys.
of cus, to my other friends.
iloveyou all too.
for you guys are the ones who made my smiles,
everyday.
i'm just like a thorn in my mother's world?
perharps, i shouldnt be in this world.
everything's always my fault.
anything lost, she blame me.
training ended late, she blame me.
my sister cry cus she ownself injured herself, she also blame me.
EVERYTHING THAT HAPPEN, SHE ALWAYS BLAME ME.
she simply have no idea how much she hurt me with her actions lo.
she simply have no idea how much tears i've cried for her lo.
she simply have no idea how much i want to be back a good girl lo.
lalas~
well,
ii dont feel like going on.
cus it spoils my mood.
DEAREST, though you lost the match today.
dont be upset kays.
dont blame yourself lerhs.
you're not the cause for the team to lose.
if the team loses,
the blame cant be pushed to one person.
dont say yourself lerhs.
dont have to train fitter.
fit enough lerhs.
you dare not bang them,
cus you scared to hurt them.
understand?
forlife&eternity, iloveyou.
deardear,
ii didnt break my promise.
ii never drink cold drinks.
but its up to you to believe me,
for i've broken my promises for times & times.
i'll still keep that promise,
until the time limit's up.
i know it's for my own good,
cus you want me to recover from cough quickly.
& now.
ii dont wanna break the promise.
ii promised to sleep before 10.40.
& now its 10.36.
time for me to end here &
go to bed.
sweetest dreams dearest.
SAYACINTAKAMU :D
Labels: and deardear, ii wanna last forevahh with y0ohh. be my last romance.
10:35:00 PM
